Anna in Suspension

Apologies for dropping off the radar, but it’s been a weird year. I read early on after discovering Anna, about purges; people purging their wardrobes trying not to be the girls they were. I decided I’d never do that.
And I haven’t, but the last year has been a virtual purge at the mental level. I guess that accompanies every ones purges, I just hadn’t realised it.
I did have a respite in August 2012. Jay got an awful thing in her legs. They tried antibiotics at home, and put dressings on the massive blisters. It still got worse, and her toes went black, so they put her in hospital, and it took ten days of a mixture of intravenous antibiotics to get it under control. The blisters had nearly got to the top of her thigh. It was awful. When ever I thought about it, for months afterwards, I burst into tears.
None of this stopped me having a really good girly time. I painted my toe nails, and it was so gorgeous seeing them all the time. I also washed all my girl clothes and got them nice again, and slept every night in a nightie. Fantastic. Wore my feminine clothes all the time in the house of course.
And then Jay came home – and the withdrawal feelings made me so sad too.

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2 Responses to “Anna in Suspension”

  1. TinaCortina Says:

    Heh, Anna

    Hope you are well. I’ve dropped off the radar too, but you just have to keep doing what you can. Follow your instincts. If you really need to dress, you will find or make n opportunity. If you can cope without because other things are more important, fair enough. We all have our selfish moments but if you love your family you have to support them and that doesn’t mean doing loopy loo and saying Anna is too important. If you are lucky you will be appreciated for it and will get your moments too.

    Hugs TinaCortina xx

    • Anna Arendt Says:

      Hi Tina,

      I keep living in hope that circumstances will improve somehow, and Ann can come out of the closet, but no chance at the moment. Jay has put a ban on telling our sons and daughter, (but I bet they know something, or have their suspicions – I certainly did about them, before they told us they were gay). I feel that if they knew, I would have some allies, but Jay is scared they’ll react like she does. I’m certainly not going to try anything out though.

      So – as you say – it’s a waiting game, and getting some Anna time will maybe happen again when the circumstances are right.

      Thanks for your meassage and kind thoughts.

      Hugs, Anna xx


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