Where is the Washing machine?

We were watching tele and caught the end of a who-dun-it. It involved the death of a rugby coach and he was murdered for being a cross-dresser or transgender maybe. The interesting thing was that he under-dressed when out and about in BoB mode. He kept his transgender side completely private, but I guess somehow, something showed – but as we didn’t see the whole thing I don’t know how it had happened. A comment was made that it is common for transgenders to underdress as it is the easiest feminine thing we can do, and usually perfectly unnoticeable. I had a sneaky glance at Jay, but she didn’t seem to put two and two together, and wonder if I do it.

If you have read some of my older posts, then you know I do underdress. Winter is a fab time for underdressing, as thick jumpers hide blouses and teeshirts very nicely, and baggy trousers hide tights and nylons. The big problem occurs when your partner is pathologically against anything feminine getting anywhere near you. Underdressing is easy – washing everything isn’t. Handwashing them is quite effective in the short term, but things need a good turn in the machine every so often.

I can only throw things in the washing machine when there is a very good chance that I can get to it first when it has finished, which means Jay has to be on an errand or busy in the hobbies room. This means I have to have a ‘dirty cupboard’ for clothes waiting for a wash. and also that I don’t wear things for more than a brief period, so they are still actually quite clean.

Isn’t life fun.! I am however blessed with a family that I adore and I would so like to share my real self with them, but as I’ve said before, my love for Jay and the status quo is stronger than my love of self. It’s my choice, and I try to make the best of it, and on the whole, life is good.






8 Responses to “Where is the Washing machine?”

  1. Pat Scales Says:

    You do not post often so I do not get to follow you too much but we do share some things in common. I underdress daily. I always have panties and pantyhose on unless there is a risk of exposure such as a doctor’s appointment. My washing technique is simple and easy and possibly unique. I shower daily, I simply place my panties and pantyhose on the floor of the shower. It tends to clog the drain but the soapy, sudsy water permeates the lingerie and as I finish my shower I rinse out my lingerie and then let them air dry in the closet of over a chair. While it may not be the best way to wash out my panties and hose it does the job well enough. If you cannot hang them to dry where they can be seen you can simply put them on a hanger under a shirt and they will dry overnight.
    Good luck.

    • Anna Arendt Says:

      Hi Pat,

      I have also thought of your shower technique but I have never tried it. I have hand washed my underwear in a bathroom wash basin, and hung it on a ladder style radiator under a towel. That works quite well too.

      Today I got everything washed upto date in the washing machine, and out of sight while leaving our regular clothes (washed with them as camouflage of course) for Jay to hang up. Getting caught would create a helluva explosion.

      Keep safe, Anna.

  2. TinaCortina Says:

    Hi Anna, Interesting post, I wonder what the Rugby whodunnit was; I might have enjoyed it though it sounds rather sad. I recognise it is tough with you at home but I think you are lucky to love your family. There are many out there that feel the need to do more than you and risk losing their family but I tend to think that unless the compulsion becomes life threatening in itself, then you will have a happier life with family than without. Hugs Tina xx

    • Anna Arendt Says:

      Hi Tina,
      I have to agree with you. I’m lucky that Jay also wants to stay together, just not with any bits of Anna. She has caught me out wearing holdups, and then there was the eye make-up, and then this year it was varnished toe nails. We have a few days of sulks and ‘Don’t do that again’ orders, and we settle back again. I then leave things be for 6 months or so, and then try something else.
      Under-dressing has been my big success and life saver so to speak. I can’t afford to get caught this time as it will be a big chunk of Anna out the window for a long time.

      Thanks for your concern, and apologies for a slow reply.

      Have fun,
      Hugs, Anna xx

  3. Kevin Ewing Says:

    i love your post. i soo relate to you. i underdress too, though i did not know that it was called that! “The big problem occurs when your partner is pathologically against anything feminine getting anywhere near you.y spouse is just like this too. All my life i have tried to deny the best part of me. i am to the point that i can’t deny me much longer.

    • Anna Arendt Says:

      Hi Kevin,

      That’s a huge step to take, and not a decision to make too quickly. I’m lucky in that Jay and I have a good life in Bob mode so I stick with what I have.

      Jay and I are intertwined in all our interests and family – and getting time apart on purpose is sometimes problematic. This means I can’t get to groups that would otherwise provide support and light relief.

      I can’t help with advice, except to say – don’t do anything rash 🙂

  4. TinaCortina Says:

    Hi Anna, just popped by to say Hi and see if anything new. I haven’t written anything or even worn anything in an age. Doesn’t mean I don’t feel girly, and at regular intervals. Still have the clothes, still have the hair and box of shoes/ boots in A-M’s wardrobe. I do feel though that this year, 2018 is decision time. why have all the clothes if not going to dress? Hugs Tina xx

    • Anna Arendt Says:

      Hi Tina,
      I read a lot about the highs and lows of cross dressing when I first decided to show my femininity by cross dressing, and purging and replacing ones clothes seemed to be a common occurrence. I decided then not to do it – ever. Like you, I still have all my clothes and wigs – thank you x – and it’s nice having them at hand, even though I hardly full dress at the moment.

      It’s a bit of a disappointing state of affairs, but also like you, not dressing hasn’t diminished my self worth as a woman. I have expanded my underdressing to include blouses and t-shirts. It’s amazing how much a baggy bob jumper can hide. LoL.

      A decision time of year? No need to rush though Tina. 🙂 What ever you decide, I hope 2018 is glorious year for you and all your family.

      Which reminds me, We spent Xmas and new year with the girls and our grandson. He is gorgeous of course. We live about 5 hrs drive away, but I don’t feel that is a problem, and we have some baby sitting duties organised for Feb and March already, LoL. The whole family is under his spell, and we had a marvellous time.

      Stay safe and have fun.

      Love and hugs, Anna xx

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